Friday, October 3, 2008

Almost a full week at home

I cannot believe we have been home almost one full week. It feels like we just got off of the plane. It was a busy week of catching up. Annabel started Preschool. She loved it. Amber and Joey started back to their classes. I am so grateful they don't have classes every day because they have really needed a lot of time to make up for work they missed while gone. I think they are just about caught up. Mark started back to work. There is always a lot to do there to catch up. I have been working on getting us unpacked and trying to get life back to normal. It has taken me this entire week to recover from our trip. Not only the jet lag but getting use to our foods again. It's amazing how eating so differently for 2 weeks can put your immune system off balance so much. I got really dehydrated while over there. So I am trying to get myself rehydrated. As for Jacob????? That's who you really want to hear about, right? Well it is just so simple. 3 little words. HE IS AMAZING!!! I cannot believe his adjustment to us. He is so happy and so eager to learn. He asks us the name of everything in front of him and repeats everthing he hears. He gives hugs and kisses freely and absolutely loves receiving them. God definetley prepared him for this adoption. He went to the dentist yesterday. I wasn't sure how he would react. He did great. They cleaned his teeth and took x-rays. He never fussed at all. He got a clean bill of health. No cavities. Yea!!!! He is totally potty trained. He is great about telling me when he needs to go. He is sooooo proud of his Superman underwear. I had him in pullups this whole time we were in China because he had some accidents due to the food changes. He is now on track and not having those accidents. When I told him last night he was a big boy and needed to be in underwear he was beaming from ear to ear. He ran out of the bathroom and unzipped his pj's to show Joey his new underwear. He still sleeps with his shoes on during nap time but some times he does allow us to take them off at night as long as we place them right next to his bed. There are still some insecurities there. He is a great sleeper. Everyday this week except for one day when I had a friend stop by, he has gone down for a nap and slept for 2 hours. I actually have Annabel on the same schedule. It has been wonderful. So if you call or stop during nap time you probably wont get me. I am enjoying my naps too. haha I need them to catch up with this jet lag. I get quite emotional when I think about the fact that less then 3 years ago we sat in a Steven Curtis Chapman concert and God spoke to our hearts about adoption. It seemed like such a crazy thing at first. To step out on faith and travel around the world to adopt a child you have never met before. I myself certainly didn't have the courage to do something like that. How can you do that without God in control of it all. For those of you who have walked in my shoes you know exactly what I mean. To think that God didn't have each and every step of this process in His complete control would be so silly to think about. He knew from day one this would be our journey and my graditude cannot even be put into words. All I can say is I feel overly abundantly blessed. Not only that He has given me Mark, Amber and Joey to share my life with but that He loved us and Annabel and Jacob so much that He made the decision we would share our time here on earth together. Once you meet Jacob you will see what a complete joy he is. His personality is magnetic. He has a joy for life that I have not seen before in a child his age. For that matter I have probably not met many adults with that type of daily joy either. He wakes up with a smile on his face every single morning and afternoon. It is like he is saying "Ok God, what new blessing will I experience today?" We can all learn a wonderful lesson from Jacob. We sometimes allow ourselves to get so wrapped up in our problems. We forget to just live and be thankful for each day we have. He is a child who is clearly a "glass is half full type of person." I know he is too young right now to really understand about Christ and what He did for us. But I have no doubt in my mind that Jacob will be one of those men who's light shines for everyone around him to witness. I am so blessed beyond words that I will have the joy of watching that unfold. For those of you who haven't met him yet...I can't wait for you to meet him. No matter what kind of day you are having I promise he will bring a smile to your face. My faith has been stengthened so much over the last 3 years. I know the bible instructs us to have faith that God is in control of our situation. He knows what is best for us even if we don't. I use to really struggle with that because I wanted to be in control of it all. In reality I had reservations with both of our adoptions. There were times I was scared out of my mind not knowing what to expect. Not knowing if I could handle having a little one again in my home. What if I never bonded with them? What if Amber and Joey resented them? What if it never felt like I was their parent but rather a babysitter? Would I be able to handle their special need? The list of worries went on and on. But one thing stood firm in my mind. With both adoptions there was a crystal clear moment in time when God layed it upon our hearts that this was His plan and we were to just obey. Don't think about it. Just do it. That was a huge and I mean huge step of faith for me. I did not feel like I was in control which is what I was so comfortable with. I am so grateful I don't desire to be in control any longer as I did in the past. Thank you Lord for taking the wheel and knowing exactly what we needed in our lives even when we didn't. We serve an amazing God and I wouldn't want to change anything in my life right now. I just pray that when I start to take the wheel again Lord that you gently nudge me and remind me that You are in control and not I. Thank you for all four of my children Lord. Thank you that they all bless our lives daily. I cannot imagine life without them. I pray you pour your blessings out on their lives and that each of them desire to serve you while they are here on Earth.

4 comments:

Robin said...

Hi Tamera,

I'm catching up again. I do that a lot lately. I'm so glad to hear everything is going well. I loved reading this post because I just can't put into words how I feel sometimes about this adoption, how we would have NEVER done something like this on our own and how it was definitely God's doing. Your post puts it all out there, exactly how we feel about Madison. I thought it was so cool that you all were there again, just one year later, getting your son. (with your entire family this time) I wish we were able to adopt again but alas, it's just not going to happen for us. (at least I don't believe it will) Who knows though, God might just move mountains again if we are to follow this path once more.
Blessings!

The Boersma Family said...

AMEN!!! That's all I can say!!!

jan church said...

Tamara, You are so right. Little Jacob is a blessing. You and Mark are so blessed to have Annabel, Jacob and Amber and Joey. I am blessed to be apart of your lives.

Adeye said...

Hi Tamara,

I hope everything is going well with Jacob. Please let us know how he is doing when you have a moment. So wonderful to hear what a joy and a delight he is :)
Adeye